but eventually one of them will fall for the other;
maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time,
maybe too late, or maybe, just maybe, forever."
Hi all, wasn't able to blog yesterday due to the overwhelming number of essays i had to write. Yay, i've completed 6 out of 9, all of which are due tomorrow..joy. Nearly finished my muck-up day dress, would post a picture but it's not done yet...If in case you were wondering, I am following suit with the super skanky/figure hugging/cleavage reavealing/cheerleader-esque design just because i can,teehee.
Anyways, I was in the car on my way home from school today when it hit me: How can we humans be so certain and uncertain all at once. We plan our lives so thoroughly, every minute detail,every moment, every outcome(at least i do), and yet in the face of adversity, we so easily allow our dreams to slip right through; our efforts become completely futile, and we are left but with the stray wisps of hope, dangling on the edges of our subconscience. All of a sudden, we feel that we no longer know the purpose of life or where we are headed. The road comes to a terrifying "dead end" and we are engulfed in a blanket of darkness, no longer driven by the passion and purpose within us. Rather we are maneuvered by the wants and needs of others, what society expects and demands of us and what our friends encourage us to be like. I'm sick and tired of conforming to the standards of others;gradually sinking into the pits of pseudo-happiness, never really content with what we possess or achieve. Then love comes along and sweeps you off your feet. Yes,love has an innate ability of showing up at the most ridiculous times. I really hate how it does that. Now not only are we entangled in a web of artificiality, but have been blinded by the fog of emotions that love clouds us with;yet we humans are so suscpetible to this. But at the end, the most crucial component still draws itself towards us: What do we really want, and how badly do we want it?
Decided to leave school at 12 today. If my memory still serves me well, this is the first bludge i've ever done. I don't feel as chirpy as usual and am even less motivated to blog today. So much for constant novel-long entries,haha. Been feeling exceptionally lethargic lately. Guess what, i have 9 essays to write in the span of 1 and a half days; anyone would feel shitty in my shoes. Ugh. I swear someone has been stealing/drinking all my OJ. It's not even funny. I had Viv over today for lunch(Shin Ramyun,mmm) so i thought i'd pour her my favourite/best ever orange juice. But no, it wasn't there. So angry*tries pulling an angry face and fails. Anyway, exams are in 4 days for me. Got a japanese oral on saturday...my god. I feel the nerves creeping up and have been trying to avoid it by taking super long granny naps,which really haven't been helping. Really gotta hit the books soon,very soon,okay, immediatly after this. Good luck to all you year12 peeps, 3 weeks and it'll all be over. In the words of Wacko Jacko: " This is it." haha so lame. Was gonna blog about something else today but..i.cannot.be.bothered.